I’M DROWNING IN MY THOUGHTS

Image and poem by Martha Di Giovanni

I’m drowning in my thoughts

My eyes are open but I cannot see

I want to feel the rain and quench my thirst

Float in the silent calm creek

But the noise in my head drowns it

Let me feel my clothes dry

In our golden sun.

Let me be awakened.

Get me out of here, demons be gone.

There are so many things I must rejoice

I must sing to the moon and stars

And dance to the sea.

Allow me to be One,

I need to be forgiven

Because I have been so naïve.

I don’t need to drink or eat

I just want this moment with the universe

And be…..

I want an opportunity, this moment

Because I realized…..

That everything counts.

Get me out of here, have empathy toward me

My soul is in bondage not to speak.

I won’t play games anymore.

I promise!

I hear the breeze but it doesn’t touch me

I hear the river but it doesn’t soothe me.

I hear a heartbeat but it’s not mine.

I hear it all but I am not.

Get me out of here!

Just for a little while so that I can be true.

Just enough to through the decades

Of my wasted life.

I need to depart from what I was,

I need to forgive all my faults,

I need to learn how to love,

I need to love myself.

Now I am in the past.

Without a trace

Erased

I know I had to……

Because I’d died.